2012- "The" year

Assalamualaikum homo sapiens :-)

How was your 2011 people?

I have to many memories, both painful and sweet that has shocked me, touched me, devastated me, and above all matured and shaped me to become a better person....yeah yeah, I know I'm babbling like an old lame loser but when it comes down to it, life is all about that isn't it?

Here are the highlights or at least some of the things that I remember from last year;

1. Fell in love.....with too much obstacles; still in love and fighting for it :-)

2. Went to my first big vacation abroad..Brisbane, Australia- got to meet my lovely sister and her hubby, and had the most awesome time there, thank u dear sister :-)

3. Found out that my best friend lied to me, right in front of my face and learnt it the hard way.

4. Had my second vacation in Langkawi with my closest students with too many "memories" hahahaha....

5. Rent a room and started living alone.

6. Had people sabotaging me alas leading me to another contract year with IPB *sigh*

7. Lose weight and feeling great but at the same time devastated that the only person I care about to notice it never did...nevertheless the feeling is great :-)

8. Ska giving birth to the most beautiful kittens; Donut, Yoda, Brissy, Stokin and d late Mocha

I really wanted to make the list to go up to 10 but I just have the worst span ever hahaha.... but I will say this; I got through 2011 thanks to the never ending support from my family, my best friends, my sisters, my love, friends and students who gave me inspiration to carry on doing what I feel responsible to do....and most of all, I am forever grateful to Allah S. W. T for giving me the chance to live day by day and the guidance and strength that had made me and still making me a positive person that I am proud to be. Alhamdulillah and all my life and love I devote myself to you. 

My resolution this year? Just a few; To maintain my positive energy, To finish my master, To get a new job with better salary :-)

I end this post with a gleeful hope that this year will be as great as the ones before, Ameen... 

Love,

Aeimi@Amy Ash

Finally :-)

I know I have abandoned my blog for a very long time but it just happened that something happened to me that I need to let it out here. Why do you think I listened to Anuar Zain's Sedetik Lebih when I'm typing this?

Well,

I just found out that my ex is getting married soon. It's annoying that I had to find it out through another person when I just had a chat with him the day before. So, the question is why am I sad? I am happy...no, ecstatic for him to finally be married to someone; but at the same time, I have this sad feeling that deep down in my heart, I do want to be with him.

He is my first real boyfriend. We knew each other through a friend and I treasured him the most because he was there when I was going through a rough time during my undergraduate years. It was dumb of me to let him go because we actually never had a problem.

But, I am not writing to share my regrets. I'm writing this because finally I have a solid reason to let him go. I was still holding on to him all these years because of hope. I still think that if there is still love that he will accept me back. Well, false hope huh? :-)

I constantly have this feeling of screaming at him to let me let him go just because I can't stand having him around. Now that I have it, I understood that famous saying "IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE, YOU LET HIM GO; IF HE COMES BACK, HE'S YOURS. IF HE DOESN'T, HE WILL NEVER BE YOURS".

To this person,

I wish you the very best in your future life with your lovely family. You definitely have found your true love; congratulation and I am truly nothing but happy for you :-) Thank you for giving me the chance to love you. Through this, I vow to myself to stop contacting you and that if in future we meet, so be it....

Yours truly,

Amy Ash@Miss Rainbow

Zephyr in the sky

2010 ended with  great memories. Here are some of the happenings that I can recall which means, it meant a lot to me to be remembered tehehehehe...

1.Stopped working from that bloody language center to IPB, a normal education institution.
2. Had my graduation; one of the great moments.
3. Got to know great new people; Aida, Angah, Kak Yuyu and others.
4. Got a car...FINALLY~ ; greatest moment of 2010 :-)
5. Spent a lot of time with friends and family.
6. Spent a lot of time karaoke-ing; one of the great moment too.
7. Get to spend Eid with the whole family.
8. Sad to send Jaja away to Australia for the 2nd time.
9. Sad but contented to send Mama & Daddy for Hajj for the 1st time.
10. Sad to send Awin away to Australia too.
11. Received CGPA of 3.625 for my Master's first semester; a great moment indeed~
12. Still working at the same place.
13. Reconnect with my best friends.

Other than that, I summed up my 2010 to be my most calm, happy and great year in a very long time. Great family and friends had showered me love, given me motivation and strength. So if you happened to read this, from the bottom of my heart, I thank you. You have made me a better person and I will never forget anything and everything that you have given me. May Allah bless you.


As for the 2011's resolution; I will attempt at none. It is merely wishes that I'm afraid I won't be able to fulfill if I put it in the list. So, I decided to just carry on what I have not achieved last year with hope that this year will be more promising than the last. Allahu Akbar..

Till me meet again..

Me,
Amy Ash@Miss Rainbow

Rainbow= ME!

Forgive me for not updating my blog for the past two weeks (as if anyone would read it haha). Anyways, the past two weeks had been great, well the first week was pretty plain but the second was a blessing from Allah. With that, I would like to share with you the two happenings in this week hee...

Firstly, I was planning on waking up late on the 1st of Muharram but my angel in disguise a.k.a Yas (tehehe..) called me at 8 in the morning to tell me that our results are out. Feeling fresh by that phone call, I instantly start my laptop and check my result....OMG!!!For my first semester, I obtained 3.625!!!!I'll be damned!!! Tears of joy exploded like fountains...sape sangke Amy yg pernah repeat subject and jatuh pointer boleh dpt Dean's List utk first semester?! And I never expect to get such GPA as I was struggling during the first semester between my classes, assigments and my work. It was hell and was a lot of TENSION! But ALLAH IS GREAT; berkat doa mama ayah, usaha, help from friends and tawakal...I did it~~

~ALHAMDULILLAH~~

Secondly, the day when I went to pick my parents up from KLIA as they return from Makkah. I was informed earlier by Daddy that his flight has been delayed so I have planned to go there a bit late, well, late as in 11.00 p.m. I should've delayed my journey too cause my father's flight was suppose to touch down here at 2.15 p.m. So, we killed the time by having a very2 late dinner at KFC; me, Yas, Kakak and Tasya...we were laughing our ass of making jokes and basically and literally trying to waste the time. So, to cut the long story short, Eddie was able to come because of the delay so my siblings Eddie, Ashem and me are all there except for my sisters. Waiting was basically an agony because I really miss my parents. But when they emerge from the arrival door, I was beyond the extend of happiness to see them in great shape. ALHAMDULILLAH~~ I hugged my parents as if I have not seen them forever. We arrived home at 4 a.m. and Pakdik and Makdik was already at my house with coffee prepared to celebrate their home- coming. As we chatted, my brothers went home and then followed by my uncle. It was pretty awesome for me because in many months, I have not slept that late, which is at 6...

So that's all folks, I will write more when I really have nothing to do~~

SHACUAR!!

Amy Ash@Miss Rainbow

I'm mArVeL0u$$$!!!

So..okay...another week had passed for me and hell it was literally packed with dramas..dramas of me and people around me..so let me just walk you through the happenings starting with Monday~~

Monday- Contrary to what people refer to as "Black Monday", I found my Monday as normal as it has always been.Nothing happen actually hehe..



Tuesday- I was actually really2 nervous because all of us (lecturers) had to go to UiTM for the validation on how we mark student's essay. I waited for hours as the senior lecturers and experts went through the papers. All of my colleagues had comments and some. I happen to be the last person to be evaluated and it took even longer for my papers to be checked. When that lecturer called me, I was surprised to be told that I actually marked the essays better than any of my colleague. Owh how my heart was flying happily especially when the praise came from someone who is much superior than me. I'm pretty pleased with what I have achieved which gave me an awakening that this profession might not just be as bad as I thought :-))))


Wednesday- Another great day for me because finally I was able to meet up with my friends whom I missed so much. Yas who barely joins us when we went out had joined us that night alongside Fattah, Fana and "S.P mai" Shy ngee~ ~ I had a lot of fun just hanging out with them and knowing I actually have such good friends. We went to Asia Cafe (despite the rats propaganda) and had good meals and we girls continued our girl talk at McD about..ehem...boy stuff hehe...



Thursday- Me and my colleagues helped Yas to move out from his house and it was the first time I really saw Yas in his transformation to "Hulk". I can't help but f**king hate that  parasite guy and pitying my friend Yas as well. He's too generous that people just keeps on taking advantage on him. A lot of drama I must say cause as we were about to leave that bloody house, his "kakak angkat" rudely accusing more and trying to create a fight. Stupid ungrateful creatures...

Anyways, now that Yas has finally found a room at a condo with a swimming pool, I hope it will turn out to be another new chapter for him~~Amin~~



Friday- I was sympathetic towards my nieces who went nowhere for this week so I decided to bring them and watch Rapunzel as I had been anticipated for it. My plan was to buy the tickets and have dinner at Pizza Hut but instead of having dinner there, we just had KFC.

Above all, Rapunzel lives up to my expectation!BRAVA!!!I was really impressed with the storyline cause it made sense than the original version that we all know. It is more believable and the songs are not draggy...Overall, a nice movie to end my Friday :-)))



Saturday- I took my nieces for breakfast and had Roti Telur. I planned to cook for the day and to watch my brother perform at night. I cooked our signature "Sambal Udang" and glad that I have not lost my touch. It was very delicious and I ate a lot I must say hehe...At night, we went to watch my brother at Friendschino in Damansara Perdana where my sis- in- law treat us with chicken wings and fries. The interesting thing about Friendschino is that it is a place where we can jsut hang out at the sofas- like dining, playing board and card games; we even tried playing pool and it was awesome!!I will definitely come here again in the future.


Sunday- I thought I would just sit at home and lost myself in front of the computer but Yas came to take his stuff and suggest that we go out for lunch. He said he remembered that I mentioned my cravings for Banana Leaf Rice and we went to Klang's Little India in search for the cuisine.

We found a restaurant and my lunch was fulfilled with the best of Indian food!The taste of the spinach is still at the tip of my tongue...who knew a spinach could taste that good?!!

So there's the chronicle of my fabulous last week. I had mostly ups of life but nevertheless I am thankful for everything that had happened. I'm praying that this week will be more or less the same as the last.

Me,

Amy Ash@ Miss Rainbow

hiccups of me~!

Last week was fun for me...not to what I had plan though. In the beginning, I and Awin planned to go to IKEA for window shopping and their heavenly meatballs with Tasya but we had to cancel it because Awin has classes to attend. Cedihnye...


It's like fate or something, coincidently Kak Ngah and Kakak simoultaneously are coming back for the break and needed me to pick them up from wherever they are; so I decided to just do something with them
(plus, Tasya hibernated in the house too long already,poor Kelepeh hehe).

So after picking them up, we went and have dinner at McD first and planned to either karok, watch movie or bowling. Tasya wanted to bowl, Kakak wanted to karok and Kak Ngah just doesn't have the voice to sing (cough n sore throat).


Alas, we went for a movie, You Again. It was alright.I did an embarassing thing though. There was this one part where Kristin Bell was being bullied by the It girl and it really made me hate the antagonist that I said "BITCH" pretty loud. It was at the same time that the scene comes to an awkward silent...so you can guess what happened right?Yeap....everyone heard me and laughed!!HAHAHAHA.....although I was blushing like crazy but I kinda liked it cause for that miliseconds, the attention was drawn to me hehe...


Anyways, on Sunday, I attended the National Choir's showcase on classical music. It was my first time watching them perform classical and I was touched, my eyes were watery throughout every song. Let me just take you back just a bit when we arrived late. I arrived exactly when the show started. So I crept over to an available seat, and I saw that the man next to me was some foreigner, kinda cute and looked like an German. Anyways, I wasn't paying attention to him. After the second song was done, the crowd applaused and when one of the choir member pointed someone from the crowd, this foreigner next to me stood up!!!!Owh My Effing God!!The composer was seated next to me!!Dah la cute, a composer plak tu huhu....


After that, I kept on watching my every move so that he doesnt think I'm just a kampung girl who is here for her first time haha...the funny thing was that I did realise that he was watching me because I was constantly patting my watery eyes, even his movements are funny. He didn't behave like musician, he even talked during the performance. Isn't that cute...?Now that I remember, he does look like Matthew Broderick, my long- lost crush haha...


Anyways, I wanted to talk to him and Oh my how many opportunities I had but I didn't! You chicken shit Amy...why didn't you?! I may just imagined that he is giving me signals as well; but can you blame me? I'm single!Of course I flirt around and there's nothing wrong with that ;-)


But that ends there....I had fun...tons actually...with my crazy nieces and my talented friends! You guys are the best!!


Despite all the good times, I still want to hang out with that one person I initially intend to...I hope we get to sis huhu.... 


Love,
Amy Ash@Miss Rainbow

Isolation- it's not good for me and you.

Honestly, I really do understand when people say they don't like to mix around just because they don't wanna get caught in the web of mistrust. That includes friends, strangers or even family. I've applied this principe before and failed. I have seen people firming up to the same principal but still ending up being the subject of gossip. So in the end, you will end up being furious and dissapointed because you have never messed up with anyone or even talk to that person but news or rumours spread like rabbies.

So I'm asking you; do you really understand what you are putting yourself through in this life- learning experience?

What you choose to stand- up for not only will be your strength but it will evidently be a weakness point for some low- living humans around you who will use it and make a total humiliation out of you!

One word people....and staple this to your freaking brain.... ADAPT!

You think you have live life to it's worst extend, think deep!

If you think you are not loved, there are old, lonely people who live in nurseries;

If you think you have divorced parents, there are those who have none living anymore;

If you think you have no money to buy lunch at school, at least you are in school;

If you think people are bad if they're direct; then you have not experienced the low- living backstabbing hypocrites.

If you think you have gone through the stormiest weather, then you have not been through a Tsunami.

Nothing is as it seem.

If you have watched Lemony Snicket's movie, you will understand that it flourishes with simple yet deep morals. There are good people and bad people in this world. With how this world is standing right now, you can never tell who is which. So it's best that you behave not like a total outcast, but to just adapt and absorb what's coming for you. 

I would say linger but that will make you sound like a caterpillar. People around you are mostly great so don't go around thinking you have it all and they are plain weird.

If it's good, it's good; but if it's bad, accept and move on.

Grudges can never go far.

It can turn an innocent man to a killer.

Amy Ash@Miss Rainbow