Finally :-)

I know I have abandoned my blog for a very long time but it just happened that something happened to me that I need to let it out here. Why do you think I listened to Anuar Zain's Sedetik Lebih when I'm typing this?

Well,

I just found out that my ex is getting married soon. It's annoying that I had to find it out through another person when I just had a chat with him the day before. So, the question is why am I sad? I am happy...no, ecstatic for him to finally be married to someone; but at the same time, I have this sad feeling that deep down in my heart, I do want to be with him.

He is my first real boyfriend. We knew each other through a friend and I treasured him the most because he was there when I was going through a rough time during my undergraduate years. It was dumb of me to let him go because we actually never had a problem.

But, I am not writing to share my regrets. I'm writing this because finally I have a solid reason to let him go. I was still holding on to him all these years because of hope. I still think that if there is still love that he will accept me back. Well, false hope huh? :-)

I constantly have this feeling of screaming at him to let me let him go just because I can't stand having him around. Now that I have it, I understood that famous saying "IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE, YOU LET HIM GO; IF HE COMES BACK, HE'S YOURS. IF HE DOESN'T, HE WILL NEVER BE YOURS".

To this person,

I wish you the very best in your future life with your lovely family. You definitely have found your true love; congratulation and I am truly nothing but happy for you :-) Thank you for giving me the chance to love you. Through this, I vow to myself to stop contacting you and that if in future we meet, so be it....

Yours truly,

Amy Ash@Miss Rainbow

Zephyr in the sky

2010 ended with  great memories. Here are some of the happenings that I can recall which means, it meant a lot to me to be remembered tehehehehe...

1.Stopped working from that bloody language center to IPB, a normal education institution.
2. Had my graduation; one of the great moments.
3. Got to know great new people; Aida, Angah, Kak Yuyu and others.
4. Got a car...FINALLY~ ; greatest moment of 2010 :-)
5. Spent a lot of time with friends and family.
6. Spent a lot of time karaoke-ing; one of the great moment too.
7. Get to spend Eid with the whole family.
8. Sad to send Jaja away to Australia for the 2nd time.
9. Sad but contented to send Mama & Daddy for Hajj for the 1st time.
10. Sad to send Awin away to Australia too.
11. Received CGPA of 3.625 for my Master's first semester; a great moment indeed~
12. Still working at the same place.
13. Reconnect with my best friends.

Other than that, I summed up my 2010 to be my most calm, happy and great year in a very long time. Great family and friends had showered me love, given me motivation and strength. So if you happened to read this, from the bottom of my heart, I thank you. You have made me a better person and I will never forget anything and everything that you have given me. May Allah bless you.


As for the 2011's resolution; I will attempt at none. It is merely wishes that I'm afraid I won't be able to fulfill if I put it in the list. So, I decided to just carry on what I have not achieved last year with hope that this year will be more promising than the last. Allahu Akbar..

Till me meet again..

Me,
Amy Ash@Miss Rainbow