Finally :-)

I know I have abandoned my blog for a very long time but it just happened that something happened to me that I need to let it out here. Why do you think I listened to Anuar Zain's Sedetik Lebih when I'm typing this?

Well,

I just found out that my ex is getting married soon. It's annoying that I had to find it out through another person when I just had a chat with him the day before. So, the question is why am I sad? I am happy...no, ecstatic for him to finally be married to someone; but at the same time, I have this sad feeling that deep down in my heart, I do want to be with him.

He is my first real boyfriend. We knew each other through a friend and I treasured him the most because he was there when I was going through a rough time during my undergraduate years. It was dumb of me to let him go because we actually never had a problem.

But, I am not writing to share my regrets. I'm writing this because finally I have a solid reason to let him go. I was still holding on to him all these years because of hope. I still think that if there is still love that he will accept me back. Well, false hope huh? :-)

I constantly have this feeling of screaming at him to let me let him go just because I can't stand having him around. Now that I have it, I understood that famous saying "IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE, YOU LET HIM GO; IF HE COMES BACK, HE'S YOURS. IF HE DOESN'T, HE WILL NEVER BE YOURS".

To this person,

I wish you the very best in your future life with your lovely family. You definitely have found your true love; congratulation and I am truly nothing but happy for you :-) Thank you for giving me the chance to love you. Through this, I vow to myself to stop contacting you and that if in future we meet, so be it....

Yours truly,

Amy Ash@Miss Rainbow